Lonliness....

Lonliness....

I'm lonely...surrounded by those who mean well and love me completely.
Im alone inside my skin...fending off depression. I've never been a depressed person,
never been one to view life though a glass half empty. It bothers me that I can't pinpoint my source of depression. I'm unsure of what is fueling my desire to drive my car into the bay.

Sadly.....im alone right now.

I cannot afford the luxury of a full blown meltdown. My recent spiral left those I love trying not to commit me to the looney bin. Why do I always have to be the strong one...why can't I be the one who needs someone else to pick me up off the floor?

I dont know......I just dont know....I dont know much anyway.

Sigh.